Father’s Day

There are two people in my world that I recognize on Father’s Day, my dad for raising me, and my husband for raising my loves.  Let’s start at the beginning with my dad.

You have been a quiet compass in my life, always at the center of whatever trajectory I chose, pointing out into the darkness of the world as a lighthouse of possibility.  I see what my life could become because I have watched you build yours.  I know what kindness and love look like because I have seen you scatter it among strangers and people you knew couldn’t deserve or return it.  The way you have reinvented yourself, your life, your career, and continue to purposefully, painstakingly develop beyond your comfort zone, has opened up for me a bright window overlooking the infinite possibilities in my own future.  There are many small steps in my life that I’d have never had the inclination or courage to take, if it weren’t for your footprints so clearly there. 

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Nurse Life

I find myself in a whirlwind of novelty and overwhelming responsibility the likes of which only motherhood has rivaled.  I am a nurse.  Two tiny letters follow my signature around.  Two foundational pieces of a language that’s been in and around me every moment of my life, now placed triumphantly, reverently, behind my name with pride. RN.  I am no longer a student and no longer in training. I have no more qualifiers attached to the title perched on my shoulder, a badge in every sense of the word.

 It took a great deal to get here, but this is what I’ve worked for.  This is what I thought about for years while trudging through the formidable preparatory tasks and struggles on the path to this place and this career.  I clung to the idea of these moments, while pushing through those and the transformative power of simply moving forward, inch by priceless inch, has worked magic in my world, in my life, and on my perspective. I have been on the outskirts of this achievement for so long, looking in, trying to learn, feverishly preparing for what I saw coming, steeling myself for what I could not, and slowly, steadily pushing relentlessly forward. 

It’s inconceivably better and indescribably worse than I ever thought it would be. 

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